Been a while

So I try to keep up with blogging but holiday time in retail mixed with school makes that difficult. I'm surprised I even got my nano novel done!

And still managed to survive black friday! Those of you who work retail understand what an acomplishment that is :)

But nothing new has really happened in my life... did you hear about Paul Walker? How insane is that!? I'm curious to see how they handle ff7 (no not final fantasy.....)  but I am glad they took a hiatus. What happened is truely a tradgedy and everyone needs some time to mourn.

Then Nelson Mandela dies... man its a tough week.

And here I am wondering about the doctor who 50th episode.... lice is kinda weird like that.

Well I guess ill go back to my mystery detectives marathon. Maybe my next blog won't be so bleh.

Dream on
~T

Its that time of year again....

Another day another word (get it? Not dollar! :D)

NaNoWriMo is upon us again! and I'm going at it strong so far! The third installment for Le Tarot will be born!

I want to give this big blog about how writing is life. words are passion and imagination is blood. But truth be told I really need to get some more writing done!

So be patient with me guys a real blog post will be coming soon.


Write your heart out
~T

Can not cease for the fear of a silent night

Sometimes we have days where we don't want to get out of bed, others we just cant wait for the day to start. this is the truth to humanity. no one is perfect, nor is anything just perfect.

And fine is an answer that screams there's problems brewing.

But then there's music. I believe music is one of the purest forms of communication we have. I know that sounds all hipster-ish but its true if you actually sit and think about it.

How many different playlists do you have? Why? Do you have playlists that reflect certain emotions?  Days? I do.

I have a million different playlists. A lot of them are for my moods of the day, sometimes I just need that inspirational upbeat to help me through the day.

A lot of those translate into my writing. When I know I want to write a particular scene then the best thing to do is play the playlist that fits that emotion. I find when I do something like that it throws me into the emotions and lets me get out the scene with incredible ease. It also helps me get lost in my writing which I consider to be a great gift.

I'm not sure how many of you reading my blog are actually writers but I'm sure there are a few out there who can agree with me about getting lost in your work. Its a great feeling and when you realize that you suddenly just wrote out five chapters... well there are very few other feelings as satisfying as that. (a few people... get your heads out of the gutter ;p)

I like the same feeling when I'm reading. though sometimes that leaves me sad when I realize I've read through all of the book and then the series is suddenly done.

But I've strayed from my original conversation on music.... and now my computer needs a reboot. that's what I get for updating office right? :)

So if you can get through my jumbles of thoughts that this post turned into... you deserve a cookie! :) sadly I don't have any and trust me when I say you don't want to try any that I would make. me and the kitchen... well we don't get along.

Till we meet again
~T

Inner Demons

Its been a while.

A long while that stretched beyond its years even. A lot has happened since I've last written a blog. Some of it just way to personal to share with the world wide web. And some that maybe one day will seem minor in the grand scheme of things.

I'm not even sure where to start or how to. I feel like there is a part of me out there that I have to find again.

Lately I had an argument/fallout with a dear friend of mine. That really stung. I know the saying friends come and go. But I have just a handful of really close friends and to lose just one stings. And with that another follows. So it feels like my group just fell through, they've turned their backs. And I don't know when or if it'll ever smooth over again. With everything going on in my life I just feel lost. More now than ever. And I'm sure it'll ease up. Time heals all wounds. But right now, its just too fresh. And I'm afraid that if I hope for it to work out it wont. And I don't want to be the one to rub salt on the wound. I miss them and I hope things will work out deep down even if I wont admit it to everyone.

So I've shut myself up again. locked myself within myself.

Words are such a major part of life, they can heal wounds or open them. Start wars or end them. Even make a smile into a frown (or vice versa) and that's my outlet.

I'm sure I'll have some new poetry to add to the blog later because of it, and I know I am gearing up for NaNoWriMo (just around the corner!) but sometimes it just hard. Everyone has their hard days.

BUT

Its time to stop being so moody! (as I slap myself across the face)
NaNoWriMo is just around the corner! hopefully with school and work I will still be able to complete the full manuscript!

I think I can, after all I did last year and I had two jobs so its really not all that different. Except maybe school. School takes a lot more focus than it did last time for some reason... Not that I'm complaining cause I am doing really well!

I also have a girls weekend coming up with my mom. We're gonna take a nice extended weekend vacation just the two of us and I am really looking forward to that. some time away will help, and its long over due.

Oh!
I actually have some really happy news too!

well its really happy news for me anyway... I got a new camera!

A nice DSLR camera! (a cannon rebel T3 to be exact) not the crème de la crème but its a good start and its amazing. I've been out all the time with it lately, just experimenting with shots and seeing what this bad boy can do. Its great! I will have to (when my memory card isn't a whole floor below me) get some pictures up to show you!

well that's all for now. I will try to have another update in a few days!

Sleep peacefully
~T

Its so surprising....

Yet not when you get so into a show you start to feel like you know the characters. As if you could be their friends too! That is what I'm experiencing now.

For those of you who haven't watched the show Nashville I recommend checking it out! Now I know what you're thinking 'I don't like country!' well neither do I. But there is something about this show... I cant really explain it... I just love it.

But I also hate it when something bad happens. I get so emotional about it.

Not like a crazy person but it makes me sad all the same.

But now I've discovered Sabrina the teenage witch is on hulu and I've been wanting to watch that show for quite some time now (especially since Netflix doesn't have it)

Time for a old school marathon and some writing.

Oh also I should mention my motivation is on full alert right now! I'm returning to school in the fall! Though I'll really be on the fast track for my second AAS degree since I have a bunch of the classes done already but that'll only help! :D

Well g'night my lovelies
Sweet Dreams
~T

The truth is

Writing is hard for everyone. If you ever sit there thinking 'I must suck at this' just because you cant get a chapter out or a character's persona right you're wrong. Don't ever let something stop you from writing. Writers block comes in so many shapes and forms

Even now I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going with the story I'm working on. I think I may have to take a step back and work on some story boards.

But the main thing is to not let it get to you. take a breath, take a step back. and come at it later if you have to.

or do what I'm doing right now and complain to your friends in hopes that they can help you.

never back down, never give up

Keep Writing my friends!
~T

Life

Always with the ups
Followed by the downs
Left in the dust
Feeling like all you do is spin around


Those four lines maybe say everything and yet nothing at all. Life is never easy, but we keep pushing through hoping for the best.

Sorry everyone that its been a while had some stuff catch up to me.
Now I think im gonna listen to some Nashville and write.

Sweet wandering to the land of dreams
~T

Movin' on up

Well I finally did it! I finally opened an Etsy shop to sell my jewelry!

I feel like I'm actually doing something. Maybe I'll finally finish up Le Tarot! :D (query letters are horrible!) But I love making jewelry so I hope this is the right step.

I also have someone interested in buying it for their shop so that shows promise right?

Well other than that things have just been things. nothing really changes around here... OH! except just when all the snow melts we get a foot of it overnight! a horrible snow storm!

and it sucked to shovel it all especially when the snow plows like to mess you up with that. But I did learn how to use the snow blower! {not really that cool}

But its time for bed, gotta work tomorrow and hopefully sell some jewelry and write a chapter!

Sleep well
~T

P.S.
http://www.etsy.com/shop/Beadsane

check it out you may like what you see

Sometimes Life....

Gives you lemons. And sometimes it gives you something so much more.



And sometimes you stare at your manuscript wondering why you haven't bothered touching it yet. Editing sucks but sometimes you gotta suck it up.

And sometimes you get addicted to video games. Like SimCity. That game is such an addiction its not even funny. My brother and I have been playing it non stop (well not quite non stop. there was a casino trip in there too) for days.

But Spring Break is coming to a close and life resumes like normal. And Im looking forward to those little peaks of sunshine that are poking thru the dark clouds hanging over me.

Im nearly tip top and recovered from my surgery so its time to pick things up.

I had this big thing I was gonna say but for the life of me I cant remember what. Guess it wasn't that big of a thing :D

Well sleep well all you dreamers

~T

Chin up, welcome the new day

If there is one thing life has taught me its take everything with a grain of salt, learn from it, and move on. Many mistakes we make in life are lessons that make us stronger.

even if those problems keep coming back. you're a stronger person because of it.

I've also learned that my pitch didn't make it to the second round. but that's okay, I'm submitting it to a publishing company that I think could like it. So we'll see how that goes.

No matter what I've learned not to let it get to me. no matter what I wont be discouraged from writing. It's my dream after all! :D

I think I may have to sit down for a few poems....

or.... A NEW STORY!?

well to the storyboards!

Have a great night everyone!
keep living your dreams

Movin on Movin along

Just keep swimming just keep swimming. Swimming, swimming swimming.

Sometimes life is like a song from Finding Nemo.

Aside from illness and car accidents and the such im still truckin' along.

And I even entered a contest for a publishing contract through Amazon!

its not really traditional I know but, its worth a shot. its one step in the right direction after all.

I realized that I am my worst critic. I am the biggest downfall I will run into. And with that in mind I refused to back down on this one. So heres hoping. Soon my pretties! soon you will all be able to read those precious words I constructed into a full novel!

keep your fingers crossed!

and now I have to go to bed so I can go to work.

which means really Im gonna watch comedy central for a little bit and maybe fall asleep. maybe not

sleep well y'all

Ramblings yet again

Life takes odd twists and turns.

Sometimes you get in a car accident

and sometimes you win a scratch off

that is how life is right now. And yes I was in a car accident. Both the cars involved were totaled. it wasn't a very happy day last Thursday. But thankfully both of us were able to walk away. Then the next day I won 15 dollars off a 5 dollar scratch off. Not that big of a deal but it was something on the up side.

There really isn't much more to report. I made it to the Olive Garden the other day and had some calamari. I forgot how much I really enjoyed it!

But now I'm going to go back to looking at baby stuff and planning a baby shower! Since my bestie found out she's having a girl!


Live and prosper
Tash